I hope you always remember, we had a once in a lifetime love. I fear that I won’t find anyone who will allow me to be myself as much as you did. I fear that no one will make me as happy. But the thing is.. we will both be happier in the future. Together or apart. You’ll go on and I’ll go on. You’ll always have a place here. A place that misses your half smiles, awkward moments, your arms around me, trips to the beach when you’d carry me to the car, love notes on your car, secret nights at your house… You’re a memory I can’t forget. You’re a memory I need to put in the right aspect of my life. The past. If we have a future, it’s something new. It’ll be something different. No matter what’s going to happen with us, I need to push us behind me. Look back and smile at what we were. Maybe we won’t ever be that again. Maybe we will. Either way, it’s like picking the same scab every time I think about you. I’ve been leaving myself open wounded far too often.
